MarriedToME

 

 

 

Find a guy:



Who calls you beautiful instead of hot




Who calls you back when you hang up on him

Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep

Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead


Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in are your sweats

Who holds your hand in front of his friends



Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you



Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, “that’s her”.

 

I loved this so much I wanted to post it and of course it inspired me to write a little about….

 

“WAIT”

 

He is coming, he is the man of your dreams, the one who satisfies your soul and stimulates the very places you ache and yearn. He is busy like you, living life, going through it girl and making his way home. The longer you put him off the longer he must put you off. Let him know in vibrations that you wish him well and pray for his protection and guidance. Write down the qualities he must acquire through his dilemmas, through his joy, and through his pain, in order to acquire you! Go to bed at night secure that you are on his mind because he is on yours, and awake thankful for another day that you are closer to meeting him. Eat well, have fun, take care of your body and spend time with your girls, enjoy the day and the night. Live in the lust for life, spend some money and save some too.JGet your finances tight and your home right, wear some fine threads but remember that your spirit is the first handshake, the first eye-sight. Learn your lessons well and NEVER regret, as who you become is the one he wants. Say goodbye to those that leave and master the art of “keep it moving”. Remember the saying “for a reason, for a season, for a lifetime” it will suit you well. And during it all remember to….WAIT, he is coming!

 

Love,

Marlene

 

I know this might be quite personal but the hell with it as I need to get this off my chest!

 

As most know I have a newborn that I am so overjoyed with. I feel my life has been blessed in degrees I have only known once before with the birth of my daughter. I see the beauty and miracle of life and all the sweetness and innocence it brings all over again. My God thank you, the love I feel for my children is so overwhelming to me I am often reduced to tears of joy. So I ask myself, how can someone just walk away from their child and act as if they do not exist but only on paper.

You see my ex walked out when our son was only 1 week and 2 days old. As I sat on the couch with the breast pump attached to my nipple and my stomach ripe from the scar and unbearable pain of a c-section, his exact words to me were “take care of the damn baby yourself, I’m outta here right now”. The scene really was something right out of a movie at least in my mind, because I could never believe that someone could be so cruel and this be real…I must be dreaming or at least waiting for the director to yell cut!

So here I am, baby in the left hand, breast pump in the right and staples holding my belly together, left to take care of my son, my daughter and myself by myself! Wondering at the same time in my delirium…hmmm can I start exercising yet so I can get my sexy backJ

The strength of a woman is unsurpassed!!!!! Don’t ever question that! I am living proof as well as countless women who have endured the most life altering, painful experiences one could never imagine possible. I always looked at my mom and wondered, where in the world does she get the energy to do what she does, now I know. It is this seed that is planted inside of us, I mean us women, by God. In order to be mother and I mean …to be Mother, not just to children, but to all of life and experiences, you have to bear that seed of strength. There is nothing I cannot do. The funny thing is I knew this before but I believe it now! It has been a month and a half since he left and has only shown once to date, unannounced I might add, to see his son. Because you have to remember some men believe that once you have a child with them they automatically gain an all access pass to your home, and to your life. Sorry but that pass was revoked when you left and now you MUST have scheduled appointments. Imagine me showing up at his place unannounced? Okay, you get it, so I do not even need to go any further.

So now I am labeled to his friends, family and anyone who will listen, as the bitch who will not let him see his child. Incredible!!!!

What do I do now? I pray a lot for love in my heart. WHY? Because it is too easy to harbor hate and bitterness right now. I pray for truth to come to light, and I pray for the weaker vessel to have God exposed in his life. Believe me this is no easy task but it is much easier than having someone change the essence of who God made me to be.

When those days of sadness try to surface, in that moment I look at my son and a complete sense of love washes through my heart. I look in his eyes, I look at my daughter and I look in the mirror and immediately I am shown the true success of life, of what it means to be prosperous and I look forward to the rest of what God had for me because I am courageous, unselfish and obedient.

THANK GOD!

Your Girl,

Marlene